Stronger With Each Tear

There are no words or ways to show

All the thoughts I’m thinking of…

I reflect on my past actions

Oh! the crazy things I did

Just to show my passion

 

You were all I always wanted

Everything I thought I needed

I’m sure I reinvented the true meaning

Of what people call a yearning

 

But then you left

And it felt like the sun

Was taken from my sky

I must confess I’m still confused

And can’t help but feel used

Tell me why I had to pay the wrong price

For falling deeply for you

 

They say time heals the wounds

So why do mine still feel new?

Why does my heart still skip a beat

Anytime I hear your name

Why does my body spontaneously tremble

Anytime I  smell your sweet perfume?

 

I cried for many nights

Till my reservoir of tears was totally depleted

I prayed that you would come back

And fantasized for hours on end

About a love that wasn’t real

And a past, not  to be revived

 

But tonight as I sit in my quiet bedroom

Smiling and typing away on these little keys

I realize one positive thing

In this whirlwind of negative emotions…

That which doesn’t kill you

Makes you stronger

After the tears have dried.

WHAT HE WILL NEVER KNOW..........

I want to run, I want to hide.

From all the pain he caused inside.

I want to scream, I want to cry.

But when I see him all I do is smile

Why can't I just tell him Goodbye?


I want to move on but, I just can't let go.

I love him more than he will ever know.

I wish to start over, I want to feel free!

But this pain will never leave me be.


He hurt me bad, the pain is deep.

I believed I was strong but I'm weakened still

From all the promises he couldn't keep.

All the lies, I heard him say.

Are in my head and just won't fade.


How can I forget him and, leave him behind?

Or even, erase the memories from my mind.

Especially when I realise the hard truth.

He doesn't love me, and he never will.

And sadly, he will never know,

How I truly feel.