Wishes……..

Walking indolently on a quiet street
I listen to sad love songs
As flashbacks of the times we’ve had
Remind me of the emptiness I feel
Now that you are not around

There was a time in the past
When I was yours
And you were mine
Together we were like beautiful music
Each note perfectly in place

Words can’t describe what it felt like
To have you kiss away all the sad tears
And crack little teasing jokes
Till you saw me struggle to hide my smile
Oh! the feeling was sublime.

Through the good and the bad
I’d been so glad to be with you
But now you’re gone
Leaving nothing but wishes and unfulfilled dreams
And the smell of your cologne
On every sheet I own

I know I should leave you in the past
And move on with my life
But it’ll take time
To control these feelings of you……

Sometimes I think of you and sigh……
If only I could have you hold me
Through the cold and rainy night
I would wake up to a morning
That is warm and bright.
But sadly, all I can do is wish…..

Shattered Dreams.....

Gazing rapturously at my reflection in the mirror
I felt I would take a chance
And look him straight in the eye
As I express my feelings

With an ease beyond description

I unexpectedly drop by

To surprise him and declare

My everlasting love to him

And I how I envision us

So delighted I was to be there

That I stupidly failed to hear

The moans and cries of passion

Till I was at his door

Take it easy, Take it easy

Was all the gruff and panting voice

Of the one I thought I knew

Was saying to his partner in the act

At least I have my pride

So away I walked, quietly

But as I left

I prayed for sounds of thunder

To mask the the sound of my heart breaking.

Sealing Broken Fragments

You break my heart
Then turn around
To say you care
And even dare
To seal the fragments
That were created the day you broke my heart
But darling, baby.
That’s a journey, my heart won’t embark on
Not with you at the driver’s seat
Cos these broken fragments
Were replaced with a brand new heart
And guess what, its custom made
From a rare form of stone
So now, as the door opens
Please take a cue
For I’ve got lots to do.

Bruised But Not Broken..........

Last night as I listened to Joss Stone's Introducing Joss Stone album, the soulful music made me relax and reflect on my love life.. Last year and the first few months of this year has been a rollercoaster ride between emotional bliss and heartbreak hell......

See... I'm what many people call a hopeless romantic. I try so hard to be careful and yet when I fall in love I stop myself from being safe and that's when the problems start, its as if I'm not supposed to let guys know how I feel... Since the moment they realise how much I care, then they start taking me for granted....

Anyway, last year when an undeserving, ungrateful opportunist broke my heart, I snapped.. I began to ask if something was wrong with me, was it because I was fat (I'm a size 16-18)? Is it because I let my feelings show? Am I too emotional? Am I unattractive?

So, the first thing I did was go a diet and exercise regimen and,  my hard work was rewarded by a weight loss of 10kg... It was then that I realised I was doing it for myself since exercising made me happy and got my mind off things. Oh!!! and when I felt lazy, all I needed to motivate myself was the size 14 jeans that I want so badly to wear by December..

Then I met someone else, who of course raised my hopes only to bring them crashing down.... I cried a few tears, couldn't eat for days and couldn't concentrate at work.... That was when a friend sat me down and said..... "Enyo, when you love yourself 100%, you won't give a shit about being loved by someone else"

And then it was Joss Stone's clearly sung lyrics that suddenly got me back into action.....

And i'll be alright

And i'll love again

And the wounds will mend
I'm bruised but not broken
And the pain will fade
I'll overcome my fear
Its not the end of me
My heart is still open now
I'm bruised but not broken....

Indeed, I am bruised... But I'll be damned if I allow some guy to break me...

WHAT HE WILL NEVER KNOW..........

I want to run, I want to hide.

From all the pain he caused inside.

I want to scream, I want to cry.

But when I see him all I do is smile

Why can't I just tell him Goodbye?


I want to move on but, I just can't let go.

I love him more than he will ever know.

I wish to start over, I want to feel free!

But this pain will never leave me be.


He hurt me bad, the pain is deep.

I believed I was strong but I'm weakened still

From all the promises he couldn't keep.

All the lies, I heard him say.

Are in my head and just won't fade.


How can I forget him and, leave him behind?

Or even, erase the memories from my mind.

Especially when I realise the hard truth.

He doesn't love me, and he never will.

And sadly, he will never know,

How I truly feel.

The Question Of Love

This is something I wrote on a not-so-great day.Yep.. my heart got broken. Hope you like it though..

I sometimes ask myself
Questions I never answer
But this has been consistent
In being real insistent
Why do I give my love
When it won't be given back

Is he just a dream
I'm hoping will come true?
Or is it the look he gives
That sends my pulse racing?

His pics are everywhere
The smiles still damn enchanting
I try to comprehend
Why the hell didn't we just happen!

I guess my mom was right
The truth indeed is bitter
But love not reciprocated
Begins a tragic moment